A Mistake
Laying beneath the stars and moon
Hoping that you would join me soon
I cried and cried till my body grew weak,
Leaving the tear stains on my cheeks.
I wanted to be happy and know pure joy
I wanted to be able to not have my hurt used as a toy
I wanted to be able to have someone kiss me so soft
I wanted to be able to have time stop
I held myself tight wondering what I would say
When I ran into you the next day
For that kiss made me wonder if my life was really right
Or if I simply fought for nothing visible in the light
I wished I could have changed it and had pushed you away
I wished I could have changed it and had seen ahead that day
I wished I had never cared or thought of what might be
I wished I had never cared of what you thought of me
I shook all over with chills from the cold night air
Wondering to myself if you had ever actually cared
Sobbing hard again as I seen my mistakes
Realizing deep within it was all just fake
I hoped that now you were happy for making me love you
I hoped that now you were happy for making me want my life to be threw
I hoped that now it was easy to sit and see me sad
I hoped that now it was easy to tell I’m not really mad
And even though my heart is broken and I know the wounds will heal
I sit here beside the grave crying, forever missing you still
And as the lightening lit the sky I felt warmth in my pain
I knew that though here that pain was eased it will soon return again
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