A Note To You
dear love
you speak and write as if you were left,
abandoned in a dark and lonely closet
but i am there
you know that i am
my sad and masochistic form is always there
for one small moment i wondered
my fears took hold of me
i wondered what i will do when i lose you
to that damn school
i am used to being alone
in my own dark closet
but you shattered that
i was in shock
i know my feelings
and while i hate it i understand
and accept the fact that i rely on you
i need you to be with me
i am utterly and hopelessly yours
but you are leaving
that fact hit me harder than that car
that we all laugh about now(or that escalator)
and shattered my confidence
what will i do when you leave
i can't expect my love to just leave and go with you
and i can't expect you to stay in love with a person who you can't see
but you aren't alone
not while you are still here
close enough for me to wrap my arms around you
and hold you
as though the world were ending
i love you
i am in love with you
though therefore i assume that you love me to
but i wonder this
when you say that you are alone
do you still love me?
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