A Sorry Salutation
I know where I must go now that you’re gone
Though I won’t leave just yet
I need time
A moment to sit and be sad
I choose to mourn because there is no other option
No solution but to cry
To celebrate what was and to weep for what I can no longer have
It’s nobody’s fault
Change is too natural to pin any blame
We’ve felt it for a while
Steadily growing
Softly creeping like vines up a crepe myrtle
I hate this goodbye
It’s less than halfway
Don’t kid me, is it even goodbye?
No: we will still smile as we pass each other
A simple gesture now devoid of meaning
You don’t love me like you did
And maybe I don’t either
It’s change
A slow, crushing farewell in disguise
I won’t keep you
I do understand
Life is tumultuous and you’ve found your fit
I just wish I could’ve been molded in too
But it’s better to flow freely than shoved in a box that is not correct
For now I can do nothing but sob
Fat tears roll down my cheeks
Feeling forsaken, abandoned, alone
Finality seeps in our tone
Fragments of memories whirl past my perception
Flashbacks to moments, gold and silver hued
Forlorn, I hiccup as I try to catch my breath
Yet everything is ok
Sadness is the first stage of acceptance
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