Absolute, Eternal Loneliness
This is just a clumsy free verse, or rather, a pseudo-poem. Laugh at me if you like. I am what I am, whether you like me or not.
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Yes, I remember it quite distinctly.
It was 15 years ago that I realized how lonely I was.
Until that time I had never known I was that lonely.
In fact, I had never felt lonely or not lonely.
But at that time, just a few days after my divorce,
When all of a sudden I fell desperately, fatally in love with that devilish woman,
I knew for the very first time in my life
That I was actually eternally, absolutely lonely.
Every second that I was not with her,
I felt totally empty, craving her presence.
I kept weeping, sobbing, and crying
In my excruciating longing for a sight of her heavenly smiles.
Then, one year after I first met her,
Rumor reached me that she had got married to another man.
I wanted to hear her giggles again,
which had always thrilled me.
But she never wanted to see or talk to me any more.
Yes, it was when I met her for the first time
That I knew I was eternally, absolutely lonely.
Ever since that time, for the past 15 years,
I have always been absolutely lonely,
Feeling as though I were totally alone
Without any human, animal, or even vegetable companion
In this vast, pitch-dark, indifferent universe,
Without any hope of my desperate voice
Reaching anyone's ear.
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