Afraid To Fall
Once again, heaved back into this perpetual battle,
of safety or risking once more, what matters.
Comprehensions of the topics discussed,
understanding emotions and broken trust.
Inside those moments of intoxicating vivification,
the illusion of impenetrable defenses goes under decimation.
Fear grips the consciousness from the vulnerability.
Certainties elude the futures expectancy.
Time ticks on, relentless and never resting,
patience is cardinal to ascertain the resulting probabilities.
How quickly memories of hopes and wishes can resurface,
Those sweet day dreams filled with harmonious bliss…
Yet, danger is being sounded, constantly and inevitably,
for sooner or later, this bliss is torn from me.
No longer can this agony continue to reoccur,
to let the briny moisture gather and cause my sight to blur.
Forever stained is the cognizance of recollections,
morphed and twisted they are, by negligent attentions,
Harrowing anguish have become second nature,
there fore this imperfect heart I hesitate to wager.
How to implore this inquiry of intentions,
while avoiding the creation of apprehensions.
Full of fear and anxiety, but, a glimmer of hope, one can see!
That hope, that if I fall, you will be able to catch me.
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