Another Couch
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How do I find myself here again
On a couch one more time
Another call that I should make
An irony sublime
We split a few weeks ago
A party I've been having
But She just called me so I'd know
What has been happening
Her request is oh so simple
But massive its import
A date to a business party
As boyfriend not escort
She has no reason to stay here
So She just told me now
If She cannot be here with me
Then back to Her home town
I am still young, I am coming
Into my own it's true
Money, position, success at
My doorstep and it's due
Do I share it, not keep it all
Discarding selfishness?
Or do I take the glutton's fall
With a villain's harshness?
Women I'll find so freely now
They've been just so for me
Coming quickly to my calls since
I reached maturity
But She's put me to the question
She's given the deadline
Will I be a real man for her
Or just the boyish kind
I've been put to this test before
I've realized I failed
Years' guffaws through gritted teeth
While inside my heart wailed
Then to visit the other One
This is to keep Her here
One relationship exhausted
This shortened by my fear
If I make this phone call to Her
It means the end of youth
It means real life consequences
It means upholding truth
It means we'll say our wedding vows
It means fidelity
It means that I must choose right now
Whom I will want to be
How did this ever happen here?
'Twas just some youthful fun
How did She in full time become
The one I call The One
Over moments and half a decade
She's all that I can see
Like my limbs, my mind, my soul
Becoming part of me
But am I really ready now?
Can I uphold all this?
Can I be all that She deserves
In Her last lifelong kiss?
Saw the other One weeks ago
I've never seen such hate
Pointed at me for things I did
A guilt I cannot sate
Am I a better man than then?
Even a little bit?
The One knows all the wrongs I did
And She's forgiven it
I have been honest and have been
True more than I was not
But in the last year I often
Betrayed Her loving thoughts
How did She oh so easily
Find forgiveness for me
Immediately letting love
Still uphold and shore me
I fear Her, and I fear all this
I fear the loss of youth
I fear vulnerability
In telling honest truth
But more than all of this I fear
Another great love lost
A treasured heart rent by me
Without regard to cost
I will always regret hurting
My other One so badly
For making her think that I did
Love her less than madly
And if She were to hate me like
The other One does now
It will make my mind break in two
And make my body bow
So like She lit those fires in me
That I thought were darkened
She now ignites my will and mind
As Her call is hearkened
The phone is ringing through the line
My fears have been put paid
For The One I'll make myself the
Best man I can be made
For to Her and the other One
A tribute I will give
Inspired by my two great loves
A good man's life I'll live
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