Apathetic
And she smiles in my face
But if I say nothing, she is without a trace
She's always on my mind but she doesn't seem to care
A one way love can never be fair
For while the recipient feels apathetic
The lover can only be pathetic
Wallowing in his lowly fantasy
Dreaming of a distant future of serenity
Living an empty world, reflecting an empty soul
No second half to complete a whole
Nothing to raise my spirits as we remain separated far
I only wish nothing could tear us apart
Nothing in this fleeting world of diminishing time
Just an impossible mountain we've been charged to climb
As we grip onto falling boulders
I only wish I was on your safe shoulders
Because coupled is the only way we can climb this hill
Otherwise I can't see how we'd do this by will
But here we are
Aligned above you are the stars
A constellation of an arrow facing your direction
The cure to my life, diseased with you, my infection
Though perhaps the arrow is pointing past you
Through you, telling me to move on from this woo
You're probably not worth it, and ignorantly I hadn't a clue
My soulmate, there's no celestial sign indicating who
Only the gray winds and changing feelings
Flawed logic in need of gross healing
But this one does not hold me as highly as I do with her
And I am intoxicated in love's seductive myrrh
She remains in a state of apathy
Her life goes on and her world spins affably
Me the unnecessary variable, the marginal tragedy
As my heart beats on with this fatal malady
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