Argue
In the loneliness of my shadows I wait. I feel a force compelling me to leave and say that I dont love you anymore, but now its just so much more than that. I cant leave, but I dont want to stay, im tripping over my words and im falling on my face. There is nothing i could say to you that could be said with any grace.
Im alone in this endeavor and I am dying. Its col doutside but its even colder inside. Here I am warring against myself for teh chance to leave and be just me, but this is a war I cannot win, having two sides of me, each wanting something else.
I look at you for a chance of word, but most of this argument you have not heard. You sit in silence, not realzing that it is me you have hurt. You always were the shallow type, and it seems that all we ever do is fight. Perhaps I have seen the last of you and there is nothing I can do.
You yelled at me from across the yard, and the things you said, they hit me hard. Everything we ever were went flying by in a short blur. I understand that there is someone new, but you really dont have a clue. All we ever do is argue.
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