Tired and trembling I lead the army of my emotions through heartache, despair and cigarette burns Burning into tender flesh Like that all too familiar Betrayal Despair finds me even in my sleep My soldiers scatter they go rougue Things I want to say only make me insecure To tell you is to drop the grenade at my own feet This is a war Behind closed doors The secret life of my thriving agony evolves and grows so large It consumes every part of me