As I Lay Dying
I lay alone in this hospital bed dying
With not a soul by my side
Reflecting on the life l lead
Tears of regret and shame l have cried
I was not an easy man to live with
I always felt the need to be right
I would disagree and complain
About “nothing and everything” in sight
I should have listened to my wife feelings
Told her what was in my heart
How much l truly loved and needed her
Before our marriage fell apart
My family were my life
Yet l never told them so
Too stubborn, too selfish, too afraid
To tell them what they needed to know
So, I pushed them all away
Because l never took the time
To truly listen and understand
Reassure ,comfort them ….that all would be fine
I know now what l should have done differently
Starting by telling them “l love you” everyday
Accepted their differences and opinions
Honestly “hearing” what they had to say!
Said “sorry” when l should have
Been loving ,giving and kind
Told them their true worth and value
My real feelings in both heart and mind
Yet I never did that,
l kept my real feelings locked away
I am estranged from my family…. it’s too late for me now
As l lay dying ,sad and alone in this hospital bed today
So If l could give any advice to you as l leave this world
It would be “tell and show” the ones you love exactly how you feel
Do it today …..not tomorrow
It is never to late to apologise, reconcile, forgive and heal!
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