Love Poem: Auspicious Nest
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Written by: Gerald Dillenbeck

Auspicious Nest

"The core of knowledge is love"
Satha Sai Baba

This dark November night
in New England
has come but midway

I, not so bright,
have given in
without a fight
to insomnia.

Above the small round yellow light
on my factory 48-pane window ledge
overpowering my bedroom walls
soar grayly up 
toward a faint 16 foot ceiling
dark, also not so bright
when time to pay the factory's bill
for heat
and light.

I woke up thinking about natural love
as perfection of spiritual knowledge,
which is so far from perfect
that compassion too often remains
hypothetically unhealthy;
again, not such a bright 
yet curiously necessary light.

My love has preceded coming out,
but has also followed from
indigenous perfection
of matrilinear knowledge,
that resiliently courageous DNA
embedded inside the nucleus
of each of "my" organically cooperative
synergetic,
win/win home team
cells
made of more resilient knowing might
than this stretched out
November love of night.

I remember warm
sacred EarthMother 
resonant wealth
holiest of home wholenest feelings

Fresh from Her womb
therapeutic Beauty feelings precede
but also restoratively follow from
perfectly healthy democratic trusts 
in spiritually regenerative Truths
transparent as tonight's opaque glass
vulnerable to personal 
yet multigenerational ass
umptions 

That insomniac drifting meditations
and medications
will not, tonight,
ease my economic 
and politically vulnerable knowledge
my compassion's transparency
sadly feels less brightly resonant,

Less depression-proof resilient
than these remaining hours
before dawn relights
Earth's coloring in knowledge
loving powers

To turn off lights
in timely nights 
knowing the end

Brings new knowledge
begun in EarthMother's sacred love,

Integrity's Great Reweaving potential
green cooperative history

Knowing sight
and meaningful
resonant resound

As my night seizure knowing son
rolls over
peacefully in love's eternal
Living Here 
greets Knowing Now

Regeneratively bright
might imagine starlight
singing to revolving
ringing shadowed 
deep autumn night.

Tomorrow is local election day
to reconsider transparent 
climate trauma's multigenerational knowledge
politically and economically vulnerable
to EarthMother's long love memory
regenerating empowering
enlightened ecofeminists
 
Supporting bicameral knowledge
of democratically healthy 
recreative 
loving health/wealth balance

Before and after naturally knowing
light's brightest night
kinda perfect 
love spirit passions.