Bad Romantic Deception
there once was a boy I thought I loved
in my mind i kept him above
all my thoughts he was there
but his love I did not share
I couldn't tell him how I felt
with the pain he could not have dealt
my mother predicted my downfall
and yet that was not the worst to befall
the fact that I knew what I had done
was still not enough to make me run
I’ll break his heart and cause him pain
that’s how I know that I am vain
to end it would relieve my doubt
that in his world I should be without
I may be just a girl of words
who wishes she would just be heard
but through these words I can express
all my sins I will confess
all the wrongs I have admitted
are few compared to the many I have committed
I know I’m wrong and what is right
yet i cannot seem to find the light
if you were to look inside
confidence you would not find
for all along I have degraded
myself in ways so as not to be persuaded
if you read this feel my pain
but know you are not to blame
I am the cause for my own hurt
but I hope I can someday reassert
myself into society
be the girl I wish to be
I doubt this will happen very soon
for things like that happen once in a blue moon
but maybe someday I will see
the thing that will lead me to be free
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