Burn the Fat From My Bones
Burn the fat from my bones and remind me,
That I am beautiful because we both know;
I will not believe it until it falls from your lips.
I will catch your words in my cupped hands as I sob on my knees
Praying for nothing but your approval.
Mother…
What do you think of me…
I was born from your womb and flourished in your arms.
I am you at heart…!
But you still hate me…
Is it self hatred or you simply hating me…?
What did I do wrong to deserve your hands on my body,
Your slaps on my face,
Your kicks in my legs,
And your words in my head.
What could I have done for you to hate me so badly…
Is it how I talk,
Do I talk wrong?
Is it how I walk,
Do I walk wrong?
When I breathe in your direction do you shiver?
Do the quills in your back stand in defense when I speak?
Do you really love me as much as you say you do,
Or do you hate me as much as you imply,
As much as you say,
As much as lack,
As much you lie.
You lack heart and pain,
Sympathy must’ve have never been seen anywhere near your name.
Mother, I know you hate me but why…
I just want one small answer please…
The voices in my head scream to me as I think of you,
Your words slicing through my body,
Tearing me from inside out,
Ripping my organs,
Tearing my heart,
Wrecking my brain…
So burn the fat from my bones and remind me you care.
Remind me you love me,
Remind me you care about me,
YOUR ACTION ARE USELESS!
I WANT YOUR WORDS MOTHER!
YOUR HONEST WORDS!
S0 WHY?
WHY MUST YOU HATE ME?!
IN THE NAME OF GOD,
BURN THE FAT FROM MY BONES AND REMIND ME!!
WHY YOU HATE ME!
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