Chasing Rainbows
Chasing Rainbows
I've never believed in chasing rainbows.
How would I find the end of one of those?
Where do they begin? Where do they close?
I never have learned where one quickly goes.
It's as elusive as a night without sleeping,
Or wasted tears over lost love's weeping.
A love no longer held in safe keeping,
Caused a pain in me that was deepening.
I couldn't climb the mountain, though I tried.
I had to reach the summit before I died.
After my teardrops had all been dried
I found the courage to say goodbye.
Climbing my way up was no easy task.
I knew the answers to questions unasked.
No guiding light in which I could bask.
I couldn't live my life while wearing a mask.
I'd been living in subtle shades of gray.
Love faded like rainbows that never stay.
I stumbled and fell in so many ways.
I was lost within an inescapable maze.
Life is not a game played without care.
A cloak to discard when too warm to wear.
It shouldn't be filled with grief and despair,
And never treated as a burden to bear.
I had many doubts as I was leaving,
But I had to end my sorrow and grieving.
And through it all I went on believing,
It was only himself he'd been deceiving.
I'm no longer haunted by the falling rain.
I freed my heart by unfastening the chains.
I frayed the ropes that caused me pain.
But terrible memories will forever remain.
I shouldn't hold on to them. I shouldn't cling,
Nor penned these words to give them wings.
But perhaps it's good to remember the sting
Of chasing rainbows and illusions of things.
~ April 2015 ~
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