Crucifier
On the day He died, I felt ashamed.
Quiet and remorse, I wanted to remain..
Why did I follow the ways of the worldly men?
When they mocked, scorned and spit on Him?
I was the cause for what He went through..
I tried to find comfort but, guilt was all I knew..
I couldn't eat or sleep, knowing He was dead..
Wishing now, I could take back everything I did or said..
When I had no one, He took care of me..
Set in my ways His caring, I couldn’t see..
When I was ridiculed, He didn’t take part..
Every kind thing He did, came from the heart..
He showed love to the rich and the poor.
To the lonely and the broken hearted, He restored.
How could I have been so prideful and blind?
How could I have been so cruel and unkind?
Sadness and guilt would not give up..
I wanted desperately to have taken that cup..
Oh~why did I point at Him and yell “Crucify?"
Part of the crowd, I sentenced Him to die!
Oh, my Judas heart what have I done?
Oh, Heavenly Father, I have betrayed your Son!
Ashamed of what I took part in and witnessed that day..
Crying and weeping, my heart slowly withers away..
As the days and nights slowly wore on..
I knew in my Judas heart what must be done..
In my heart, I no longer wanted to live..
My own life now, I wanted to give..
I bowed my head, heart laden with sorrow..
What is the future for humanity's tomorrow?
I lifted up my face with tear stained delight..
There beyond me was a beautiful luminous sight!
Was that Jesus standing there? Or was it a dream?
I wanted so much, to tell Him those things, I didn't mean..
I walked up to Him crying and at His feet I knelt..
He looked at me, knowing in His heart what I already felt..
He showed me His nail pierced hands..
Why He still loved me, I didn’t understand..
What I did I could no longer face..
But, in loving arms, I realized I was saved by His grace..
He said, He loved me and all men still..
That He died because it was His Father’s will..
That, through him, all men might be saved.
I knew then, in place of ours, His life He gave..
That all men may repent and be forgiven.
To be in Heaven forever and with Him..
Not In Hell, forever condemned.
In heaven, where unconditional love abides~
To be with Jesus Christ forever~ by His side.
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