Eternally Mine - 1
There were tears, salty and silent
Combing a path down my face
In rivers of longing, hopeless and desperate
Miserable and as dark as dusk’s heavy pace
Never allowing a piece of light to glimmer
Through the shadows of dread
Darkening the depths of my spirit
Soulless and soundless like the tears
Clinging to my lashes, a whisper
Kissing the fate of my yearning heart
As it fades and falls away from
The screaming inside my forlorn thoughts
There were prayers, feebly prayed
Self-pity painting lonely, abandoned visions
Through my thirsty pores, penetrating
Sounds of grace and goodness with weak stabs
That remind me still of the aching shame
The shadows, sullen and wan, sorrowful
Sending horrific doubts and apprehension
Into the light that had once been a part of me
But now was easily the flicker beneath
Eclipsed kindness and compassion
Gasping out pain that would never be forgiven
For invading my laughter, my smile
With grizzled gray rainfall that taught me
To listen to the sound of the shower
And know that this wasn’t the tears of God
The way someone once told me
This was nurturing, sustenance, nourishment
Sent to fill the earth with miracles
My tears were briny and sweet sounding trinkets
Of breathless prayers, faded faith
Feelings that had left me sure I couldn’t possibly
Find the beauty and joy and hope
That had once been a part of me, the heart of me
Gentling the worries and struggles with a promise
Of light, laughter, love that would fill me up
To the brink of overflowing onto a cold world
Warming the flames of kindness and joy
With a beautiful faith that is overflowing
The pace of that blood sucking enemy
Who hides within black sin and iniquity
It would take prayers, deep, moving prayers,
Prayers of faith, feeling and grace that lifts the spirit
To whisper through my beliefs, into my sensitivities
Where God could finally relieve me of the chains
The pain and blazing flame of wretched anguish
Coloring my heart in faded shades of gray
Now, I feel a thrill and the feeling is real
Light shimmers across my heart, my thoughts
Beckoning me to listen to the hope drawing me in
Like a long lost friend, raining peace across my soul
Wisdom into my thoughts and a glow of compassion
Through the depths of my spirit – joy unspeakable
Shines across my life, filling the holes that once stood
Empty and yawning, yearning for a sense of truth
To fill up my life with kindness, faith and real love
Love like this is so amazing that it is almost a song
To simply speak of its hues of tangerine suns
Sparkling stardust and moonbeams that brighten
The world who whispers light across my life
With a gentle hand, God raised me up to abide in the high
That is alive in the gifts of His faith, hope and love
Now, I don’t cry stinging tears – I cry joy filled tears
Tears of love, light and life that lives on the inside
Where God’s spirit has come to reside – eternally mine!
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