For Grandmomma Pt 1
A lot of lessons learned./ I sip this Hennessey and fought the burn./ My mind is clouded with
so many memories./ I hear your voice "Boy pick yourself up off your knees"./ But I wonder
why God would take you away from me./ Please Lord I need some clarity./ Nothing makes
sense. I cry, I can't lie nor deny I'm drowning in my own dark obscurity./
The pain remains inside./ Eating me alive./ I wonder without you if I'll survive./ I try and
hide from the responsibilities in my life, but have no success./ So I'm left with this heartache
in my chest./ Tears roll down my cheek./ Does that make a man weak?/ God I need to
know./ Was it just her time to go?/
So many times I sit down attempting to express what I was feeling,/ but my heart and
mind wasn't willing./ Nothing I wrote seemed to be enough,/ to compliment you and your
motherly love./ Every time I thought of you I felt like balling up in a fetal position and dying./
I could not write about you without breaking down and crying./
For awhile I carried a bad attitude./ Looking for an excuse to accuse anyone in my family
forever disrespecting you./ I think about all the tears my grandmomma shed./ I wished her
alive and everyone else dead./ Was it my imagination or was it your pretty face I saw in the
clouds?/ I hope you're looking down on me and you're proud./ And you're hearing my voice
right now somehow./ I wish there was a button I could push to rewind./ So I can tell you
what's on my mind./ Kiss your check./ Have you speak./ Hold you just one more time./
Your passing took away my energy./ You said you would never leave me./ You were
always so honest./ So when you broke your promise,/ It left me confused./ I felt cheated
and my soul was bruised./
Con't in Pt 2
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