For Onion Pt 1
Since you wanna play riddles and poetry puzzles with me
Before we go any further - allow me to bring you up to speed
I just got cheated on - not even a month fresh
After a terrifying, drug-infused, domestic violence, eight year conquest
With someone I devoted from the beginning with 100% loyalty
A narcissistic, skitso, egotistical soul - who believes he's Luciferian Royalty
There's more where that came from - but that's the gist
And I want what I'm about to write in this poem - to never inadvertently twist
You and I - I've loved you since I was just an innocent child
Through court systems, each other's relationships, tribulations, and trial
Truth be told - I love you more than in our past
But life decided to deal us both with sh!tty significant others of trash
Allow me to be frank - please don't take offense to how blunt
Let me be real to you like I always have - I don't gotta stunt
You're in a relationship - and in his head so am I
And it will eventually mess our entire years of friendship up - if we were to try
I know you left tonight because I wouldn't simply put out
And I'm sure there's more to that story - no doubt
I've got way too much history with you - and I've definitely put in the work
I'm way too good and valuable to be a side b!tch and hide and lurk
If I'm ever to venture there - the more ideal it would be
But you've gotten real close - then you'll push me away going back to being free
I don't know the full extent of your feelings - or where in your life I am, truthfully
I don't expect and will never ask you to cut it off with her for me
However; I get the sensation more often than not - she won't let you breathe
But when she does, you wanna have your cake and eat it, too
And unless you want ALL OF ME - disregard this - you have nothing to prove
But I'm far more of an upgrade compared to her - if I get a chance with you
Never again will I ever be with someone if I suspect they have ill-intent
I'll never dream of doing it to another - cuz I don't do well with religious repent
I guess what I'm saying is I want you to know
I refuse to believe anymore spoken words - Someone needs to finally show
I don't want you at all just because of your body
I don't just sit around and obsess with what we could do when we're naughty
If you're good enough to f--k - then you're good enough for a legitimate chance
I don't wanna mess up the 33 years we have - just cuz we chose to advance
That's just a recipe for disaster that you and I will ultimately flunk
Because we didn't listen to our intuition - when that thought we just thunk
Our 33 years ain't worth the self-destruction if we fail - then each other we'll hate
Losing your friendship to me ain't worth that future mistake
As much as I want to and as much as I want you - let me get this off my chest
I knew about the threesome - but I didn't know you wanted a "just me" test
Yes; in my heart of hearts I know that you and I could work
I just sucked at explaining it when you were here - and for that I know I'm a jerk
Yes; I know in my heart of hearts that you could definitely get better than her
Still you haven't ever given me a chance - or even to make your heart stir
Please don't think this is a poem for my rejection
Right now I'm not currently your first selection
And if you ever became single and reached out to me to ever give me your heart
Find comfort and solace knowing I loved you from our initial start
I hope that you realize all the value, potential, and worth I see hiding within you
We'll need transparency, faithfulness, loyalty and most of all truth
You'll play a greater, more permanent role in my life
(And, no, I don't mean like a wife)
But to me, you're far more than just a good f--k
You mean more to me than just a temporary suck
Please search into the depths of your beating heart
Because you're unique, original, real, and have the potential to be smart
After 33 years you still can not see what I've discovered in you?
You used to be full of vividly potent colors - now you're shrouded in blues
When the time's right - I'd rather get a fair and more attentive chance with you
I'd rather not f--k up our past and connection but sex with you isn't a suggestion
Now tell me in response to your poem - do these words answer your questions?
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