Love Poem: Gayboy Child
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Written by: Gerald Dillenbeck

Gayboy Child

To emerge as my mother's son
but heatedly defined by not my father's wanted one,
or child of either gender
much less elements of both
male and female
humane with divine regenerativity.

To know I could not win his love,
that any admiration would grow silent
begrudged
rather than recreationally owned
and laughingly proclaimed

As if competitive male v female over-population
within my family's multigenerational home
left no room for me
except this marginal manger

A queer son with two unqueer parents
but only one capable of healthy love for him as is
whenever and whyever delivered to rebirth
in selfless wealth-care.

Clothed
yet terrified of chronic naked need
for a gift I could not
should not
would not earn from Him,
to sip his not-not yet cup of pleasured Life,
as dispassionate Death.

Messianic son
brought into Earth's carnation
to co-redeem his Father's unhealthy insufficient love
sustained through virginal milk,
timeless manna of Mother Earth's 
multiculturing compassions.

If Buddha brain notices bicameral enlightenment,
Cosmic Christ belongs to ProGenitor SunGod
personal enough to sing intimate love songs 
of synthesis

Psalms of nonviolence 
for my ears 
and reimagining eyes
and taste and touch
so I can bring them back
in expanding rings
of regenerating language
con-spiraling passionately pleasured love.

Enlightened queerly curious I 
and my co-empowering SunGod Father,
One (0)-soul bilateral resonant
EcoLogical Ego-path,
becoming EarthTribe integral

Repurposed
to super-size mutually therapeutic vocations
through dipolar appositional Bodhisattva co-mission,
zen-silent RePresence,
EarthTribe's PostDevolutionary Win/Win Revolution

Ticking
ticking
ticking
ticking time's robust resonant ReSolutions,
Love as Bicameral Co-op Enculturation, 
optimizing ReGenerative Great Transition Climate Health.

Each of Earth's RNA/DNA Tribes
come through SunGod Father,
sun's light pre- and post-regenerator
of each life's 4-seasoned birth through decomposition
back into time's 0-squared transparently naked light

Ego/EcoPresent
co-gravitating Therapy/Trauma Win/Lose
Mind/Body Wealth/Health
Passion/Pleasure transgenerative 
panentheistic consciousness

equipoised surfing between SunGod's
enlightening inhale Pole
and exhale of timeless BlackEarth-Powering Hole 
eternally unfolding Convex Landscape's Universe
through MotherEarth's embryonic 
Concave
co-redemptive 
passion/pleasure
song/dance neurosystemic senses.