Happily Never After
Did you ever hear those voices that tell you he's gone,
his love has vanished but just move on,
The bed you shared has become a place of loneliness,
and everything has become your own,
Yet he's still there, just not for you as you work hard for him, but the more you try the more you lose,..hope
that he will come back, and say the three words you so deeply yearn for, but instead,
he says sorry...Instead of an embrace you get nothing, instead of holding you close he ignores you because he has better things to spend his time than fixing an unwanted broken mess.
But, you just wanted to feel close, for him to look you in the eyes and say everything is fine and I love you, I'm sorry, let me hold you while everything feels like it's falling apart but I promise it isn't,
but instead, you sit here alone, instead your questioning everything you have ever known, about him, who is he, the man you loved for eight in a half years feels like a stranger,
So you sit here alone and say nothing as your heart shatters, and keep it to yourself after that because no one needs to know the insecure days have how your brain copes,
Maybe it's better this way,
Maybe even on the best of days isn't worth the pain after,
Maybe it's your fault,
You can't even look him in the eye and say all this because it truly doesn't matter,
Because if it did he would be with you instead of pretending you don't exist.
Happily, Never, After.
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