Heartless
I used to fear the storm, now I feel comfortable by the dark clouds
I feel alone even when in large crowds
Things that I used to cherish are so easy for me to disregard now
How can you expect me to not be heartless after years of pouring my heart out
A fake smile and bravado to hide the fact I'm insecure
Had to be an adult during my childhood, I've used my 20's to be immature
A grown man still dealing with his childhood trauma
Hip-Hop and sarcasm became good armour
I've wasted years with meaningless flings and acting reckless
Partying nightly and taking a nap for breakfast
I never knew where I was going, but was too stubborn to ask for directions
Pretend I'm ok, and pour a glass of brandy to relax my depression
I'm not good with commitment, but at times I appreciate the closeness
It fixes me for a short time and lets me forget I'm from a place that's broken
The intimacy gives me a small opportunity to escape my emotions
If she thinks I'm only good enough for a one night stand I won't waste the moment
There's been so many times I got girls naked to dress up my own pain
At times I enjoyed Being thoughtless, because I already stress enough in my brain
At times I struggle to express the feelings inside my chest
I'm just a flawed and damaged man who tries his best
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