Hourglass
I got needs and wants only she can fill
the only problem is...
she lacks heavily in the reciprocity department
and because love is an action word to me
I don't get back what I give
so it's a must I move with caution
Imagine...
Being in love with the most attractive woman
but your love languages aren't compatible
almost laughable to me
the universe really has a sense of humor
I don't know how to navigate
thru this part of my life
and I can't see my life without her in it
also, this relationship isn't bad enough
for me to call it quits
It's the itch I can't scratch
the plane I can't escape
I patiently waited for this woman
only to realize the thing
I ghosted woman for in my past
and said over and over
a woman who isn't affectionate to me
is a red flag...
I've given her time
but time tells all
and it's told me she's the anomaly...
all I want her to do is love on me
the way I do her, is that really too much to ask
love that doesn't flow naturally
is clearly unnatural
Somehow she's the mona lisa I painted blindly
I chose not to see her for what she was
but also, does she see me for what and who I am
as a cancer I just...sit and observe
then retreat into my shell
I still hope that things would get better
but I have to dispel those thoughts
seems like I'm just too caught up
in the way I was loved from women of my past
I wonder at times if I'm staring
too deeply into this hourglass
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