How Can I Love Again
I fell in love...
It was wonderful!
I was totally fulfilled,
My every day existed for him only.
I trusted...
I was relieved.
Someone to share my deepest thoughts.
Someone to appreciate me for myself,
Not for who he wanted me to be.
I married...
I pledged my undying love-for eternity.
I cooked and cleaned like a good little wife.
I bore his children,
This was "our" life.
This, I thought..
Was my safe, secure little world.
In him I found the one thing
I had so longed to have
A Friend.
He became my only true friend.
He knew the secrets,
That lay beneath my soul.
Soon, he changed...
He deceived, abused, and betrayed.
He shattered the foundation of our relationship
I tried, I cried, but all was ignored.
The pain was unbearable.
What more can I do?
We cease to exist.
Communication? No longer!
Care? No more!
The happiness is gone.
Trust- deceased!
Affection, passion, and sharing...
Did they really exist?
I feel stupid, null, and void.
I feel used.
I trust NO MORE!!!
To this part of my life,
the part leaving me vulnerable-
I close the door.
How can I love again?
Maybe someday, from deep within...
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