How I Loved You
I may not send you flowers or shower you with gifts.
I may not miss you daily or enjoy our weekly tiffs.
I may not want to discuss every single feeling felt
And I may lose my patience quicker than my heart does melt.
I may not be a woman like the ones you knew before
I may be more aggressive or a challenge to endure.
I may speak too directly and my truth may be too loud.
I may have higher standards, yet live beneath the clouds.
You may not understand me or register my love
You may want someone sweeter, an angel from above.
But all I have to offer I’ve given up to you,
Hoping you would see me and feel my love was true.
I shared my times of weakness, disappointment, fear, and pain.
I gave you all my secrets ‘til no mystery remained.
I opened up my heart and released the girl within.
I bet on our potential, praying we would win.
I pushed myself beyond the boundaries I had built.
I sacrificed my comfort and let you play my guilt.
I told myself a story of a future that would be
Rooted in a friendship that allowed more space for me.
I saw the soul beneath your insecurity and fear
I spoke directly to it, hoping it would hear
How much I truly love you and all you truly are
And how the world is ready to behold the man you are.
But I am merely human and have so much to give,
I’ve poured out all my love, but your heart is like a sieve.
Now that I am emptied, I must show myself some care
And eliminate the struggle to see what remains there.
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