Huge Mistake
Broken and bruised with intentions sure pure I calm myself down quickly before the
tears pour once more a trail down my face one lands on my heart I laugh at the
irony not knowing what is about to start my mind goes black and my breathe so
rapid I can’t see straight as I reach for the floor I scream out your name into the
silence at night ill live through this only if I can put up the fight
The hope I had dangled around my neck the noose seemed to be cut to short as
the loudness of the ticking clock vibrated through my ears time was running out I
felt the coldness in my veins if only I could reach you tonight maybe I would turn out
ok. But since I don’t sleep I won’t dream of you it’s the only place I am sure you will
let yourself be found
It’s a cut so deep it has no end it goes full circle to where we began a simple kiss
still lingers on my lips as I lick the salt from the tears away a tremble sent through
my body as I think about your touch and then a moment of nausea over rules the
comfort of knowing I may never know your comfort again
Funny how life works it builds you up just to see you fall; to fall in love with you But
that’s when you start to notice your throat starts to burn, and your heartbeat
speeds up when your stomach tightens and your lungs close up when your tears
rush to your eyes faster than you ever dreamed possible that's the worst pain you
will ever feel
I close my eyes and just for a second in time I see your face again as I recall the
words that were soft spoken but held so much truth, were three simple words of I
love you. Eight letters couldn’t mean more than they do when I am handing them
straight to you. But tonight I’ll stay silent as I stare at the sky, I sit here and start to
ask questions as to why. Why would I let the love of my life, the future I see my
future wife, why would I let them escape from my grasp
Now as another tear falls and my chest starts to burn images of you in my head
start to turn. I see your smile those beautiful eyes, the way they look as if you’re
looking through me. This pain burns more each passing night and deep down I’m
losing the fight. I’d give anything just to have one moment with you to say the
things I wish you knew. But that’s what I get for being who I am a broken heart
and a life so damned. One last whisper before the darkness overtakes as one last
tear escapes down my face I clutch the blanket so close to me; I’ll be in love with
you forever, even if you’re not with me.
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