Hurt
Heartbreak.,
Pain,
Grief,
Misery,
Hatred,
Finally forgiveness.
How do you ever go about forgiving someone who’s constantly hurt you?
Who’s continuously building you up and created so much happiness to just break you down and crush your spirit?
And all they can say is, “I’m sorry” as if that those two words can make everything so much better,
As if they justify what was done,
As if the pain just magically goes away.
How can you ever forgive them with all the pain that they’ve caused?
With all the tears that were shed,
And all the nights that were truly hell.
How can you ever let go, ever move on, ever forget when the pain is just an unchanging factor in your everyday life?
Some days you feel nothing,
Some days you don’t ever care,
Yet others you cry yourself to sleep
And contemplate what was said, what was done.
Some days you truly hate him,
Want nothing more than for him to leave your mind,
But you know thats just pain masked by anger.
Then they are those terrible, horrible days when you miss him so much your body aches, your soul shakes, and you can feel it so intensely.
You know you don’t actually hate him, but what hurts worse: “thinking you should hate him or knowing you don’t?”
You know the only way to truly ever move on is to forgive him.
Forget all the times when pain was all he brought,
Leave behind all the memories you cherish that don’t mean anything anymore,
Stop wishing he’d one day decide he’ll fight for you, fight for what you had.
But you can’t bring yourself to forgive him,
You can’t leave everything behind,
You can’t stop the wishful-thinking.
So you’re stuck.
Stuck behind a wall of hurt.
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