Hurt
Here I am alone again
I'm hurting now
Got to get over the pain somehow
That has taken over me
For so long now
Yet still the heartache lives on
Don't know if it will ever be gone
Tears are uncontrollably falling
For you and only you
I upon my knees
Would come crawling
I keep calling
Only to not hear you
Do you rally want me gone from you life?
Or like me, are you scared to
Afraid that you again may fall?
Isn't love all the matters after all?
I'm afraid I'll never
Talk to you anymore
That I may not get to see you
As I have before
Just tell me am I that much of a bother
Am I that much of a chore
Don't leave me out here knocking on your door
I know moments pass
And time moves on
But deep inside me for so long
I've felt the love that was between us
Is not gone
It's always been there
Waiting until once again
We were ready to share
For each other we've always cared
But there's something more here
I really can't explain it
I've never felt this for anyone ever
Not like this before
I've lost control
Why do I feel this way?
I don't know I can't say
Wish I could get to you today
Yes I have prayed
To make my pain and hurt go away
Maybe I've brought
All this upon myself
Putting my worries on that damn shelf
There lies my heart
Torn all apart
Bleeding there on the floor
That's never happened
Quite like that before
I'm sinking fast
Don't know how long I'll last
Can't give up this fight
It may not be right
I'm in it to my end
Even if it means my heart may not mend
So I've laid it all out
Now I pray again
This time for my life to end
Only way to make the hurt go away
This pain and heartache I can no longer bear
Yet I wake each morning
God has chosen my life to spare
Keep living and re-living
Perhaps the punishment for all my sinning
Thoughts of my kids and you all so far away
Has been keeping me alive
But the hurt gets worse and with it I no longer want to survive
If he finally chooses though that it is my time to go
I just want you to know
Of you I can't let go
And that someone out there
Really does love you so
So completely it hurts
For the man you are
And have always been
Now go and expand
Your horizons
Meanwhile I'll be here still waiting
Anticipating hearing from you
I've explained as best as I can why
Now I'm gonna go finish my cry
I'm here still alone
I'm still hurting now
Still I know I've got to
Get over the pain somehow
But I don't know just
Can anyone show me how
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