Hurting
What am I to him
Does he truly love me
Does this man that I call my man
Really care?
Is he truly faithful and loyal to me
As I am to him?
My brain goes into overload
Overthinking
Its more than difficult to decipher my gut intuition and overanalization
Im so tired of being tired of being hurt
My fault is I love and feel deep
I wish that I could be cold
Therefore there would be no feelings to get hurt
I know I have the ability to be numb and indifferent
Ive done it before many a time
I know Im capable of doing it again
But my heart wont let me
And my mind is yelling 'shut that off'
Feeling alone
Don't know what to do or how to feel.....
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