love was the joke on me a longed for feeling an illusion elusive silliness i made one love me unconditionally a god an illusion he loved me so well nothing i did would stop the caring and interest directed to me or at me from me the illusion died no one cared the one that never existed was gone now i know love it exists it is real there is someone who loves me he is real no illusion i am not afraid it is not scary it is a knowing the most peaceful knowing i am loved