I Believe
He doesn't believe in the Loch Ness Monster
This revelation occurs six orgasms into my visit and totally kills the mood
I say "But at least you can acknowledge that we don't know like for sure"
And he says "There is zero proof and I believe what can be proven to me using my own rules"
And I say "What if there is an alternate reality where dinosaurs never became extinct and right where the lake is there is a family of Ichthyosaurus and what if underneath the water there is a thin part of reality and sometimes the dinosaurs come true."
And he says "I have never seen an alternate reality. Anyway the dinosaurs are extinct and everyone knows that and anyway even if that were true we'd be able to find it."
And I say "Well what if our equipment just can't register it because our technology is not that advanced"
And he says "You smoke too much pot"
This is not a conversation that can go anywhere but back around so instead I kiss him and we don't talk about it again
Somewhere deep in the lake huddled among plants only slightly different than the ones she's used to eating in her alternate dimension Nessie belches quietly and moves on
This is not a thing I know for certain but I am certain that I am unwilling to live in a world that doesn't have room for the possibility of the unknown
I believe that someday there will be a zombie apocalypse
They will take to the streets and I will take to the woods like my hippie parents taught and eventually I will come to a part that no ones ever seen before and there, I will find magic
I believe that someday I will rub the right lamp and the right good will and there will be a genie
I believe that bumblebees are spaceships for tiny aliens and the reason they can only sting you once is that the stinger is the escape pod
But mostly I believe that without my imagination I am an empty shell of a plodding work week
Pointless tik-tok without an end goal
I believe that all the beauty of this world lies in the unknowable and the endless things to find and learn and relearn and relearn
He is kissing me goodbye and I say "No, I will always believe in the Loch Ness Monster and goblins and aliens and magic wishes"
And he says "I know and I never will but I believe in you and I believe you should be happy however you get there."
I take this as a win
Settle into my seat on the big metal box flying magically through the sky and wait for the universe to prove itself it's real to him
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