The mind keeps playing the memories that I'm trying so hard to forget My heart keeps speakin words that my mouth can't pronounce yet I want to tell you so bad but I don't understand the language So I just close my eyes, smile, and remain graceful A few more puffs to numb the pain again I can feel the tears fill up in my eyes again The truth is still out there so I have to build without you You're still here so i have to learn to build around you The world spins slower and i feel like im drowning I wipe the tears from my eyes but my visions still cloudy I don't know if I'm here anymore because I'm still in love Or if I'm here still because the feelings of love are just familiar