I Don'T Know What To Do
Loving you was the most beautiful thing
I have ever felt
Losing you was the most painful blow
I have ever been dealt
Letting go of you now is what I must do
But I don’t know how, when I still love you
If I say the words one more time
And see that fear show in your eyes
And do not hear the words returned
Then I’m nothing more than a lover scorned
And I won’t let you do that to me again
Real love doesn’t run away when things are tough
Proof you couldn’t have loved me very much
And that’s the biggest reason for the tears I cry
Not the loss of trust but rather the lies
The total abuse of the faith I had in you
Believing and trusting in dreams come true
Waiting for the day when we would rejoice
You were called away by another’s voice
Too weak you were to stand alone or stay
Like a coward, you walked away
Without a thought for the heart you’d break
I wanted to hate you, and at times think I do
Behind the love I feel for you
How could you be so selfish, think just of yourself
When there were those who loved you more
Than anyone has loved you before
And than anyone has loved you since
Real love, not based on lies, but circumstance
Knowing who you are through and through
And in spite of the truth now, still loving you
When you live in fear that the truth reveals
That you know inside how you really feel
I want to say I’m strong enough to wait
To feel your touch and seal our fate
But it’s not that I am not able to be strong
It’s that I need to feel in your heart I belong
And that means always, not just when convenient
I know how you feel, but not what your words meant
Trying to understand the game you play
The disparity of your feelings and the words you say
Or the words you don’t speak when you want me
If I’m there for you, I cannot be free
Choosing the fear and pain, not desire but need
Part of me needs to walk away
Part of me needs to try to stay
And I don’t know what to do
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