I existed when no one returned your calls I existed in ways you don't seem to recall I existed when you came home late Stench of rum and sweat I existed when you left me alone many times alone and irate I existed when you took pieces of my soul Puzzled at my addiction I grew cold Darkness surrounds me Envisioned light As demons knocked at my door I conceived Him Envisioned Life Envisioned 23 years in one night As I awake Scorned and reborn I rose in existence I existed in his pulse.