I Used To Dream About Our Wedding
I used to dream about our wedding
Our family
And just being together
Cuz I was so in love
But it's fast how things change
Don't ever lie
And say that I never tried
I told you I loved you
I cared
I gave you my all
But it was never enough for you
Every time you ignored me
I felt like
Giving up
every time you said something harsh
It felt like
youre throwing bricks at my chest
Whenever your going through something hard
You take it out on me
Like I'm a punching bag
And I take it
Even though every punch
Goes right through my chest
That I can't breath
but i still try to be nice
Cuz I don't wanna fight
And you never apologized
For all the hurtful things said
But that still wouldn't get all the knives
Out of my heart
Cuz I would still have all the holes
I don't know what's worse
Fighting with you
Or walking away
Cuz I know it will never will work
They both hurt
And give me so much pain
All you do is ignore me
I should be over you by now
Every time I think we're gonna make up
But will end up worse than before
It's like we're at war
So you win
I can't do this anymore
I let you keep stabbing my heart
Until it couldn't bleed anymore
And now I'm here falling apart
With a cut up heart
I can keep on crying
But what for?
My mind used to tell me to let go
But now my heart needs to move on too
so many holes
And I finally realized
That they can't be filled with you
My hearts been locked up
Since I fell for you
So it's time to be free
And throw away this key
And get rid of all the agony
All I ever wanted was you
But you never made it that easy
It's easier to be without you
Than keep fighting with you
Cuz I remember every hurtful word said
And I remember every tear drop shed
We can never go back
And we can't go forward
Unless we're alone
So I'll start walking
Even though its cold and dark
I know in my heart it's the best thing
And one day I'll be happy again
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