I Will Never Love Again
I am a fighter
I don’t need anyone else
I sing a song all alone
From start to end
What need is there for someone in my life
For someone else to take hold of my heart
My precious heart and claw it apart
With claws I was never able to notice
When did you grow claws I will think
As my I sink into the deeps of the darkness
Regretting and being consumed by all of my mistakes
I made a mistake to love once
It wont happen again
So who do you think you are
Your not my type
To calm
To kind
And too innocent
To safe
I cant like you
Some people are simply meant to make an appearance in your life
And others are meant to stay a lifetime
I can tell right off the bat
That you will be an appearance
I know this with all of my heart
So why do I keep thinking this to myself repeatedly
You haunt me in my own mind
Why
I don’t understand
“You must love him” someone says to me
And I dismiss the thought with a burning rage
How could she question that
I , that I
Me could love someone
I will not love him
I cant
I hate the sweet way he calls my name
And I hate his hearty laugh
I especially hate his long soft curls that entangles my fingers
I hate the way my heart pounds at the sight of him
I hate how sick the thought of being away too long makes me
I hate when he holds me and we lie together in the hot grass
So long that we begin to breath at the same pace
I hate that he stalks me in my own mind
I hate that I miss him
And I especially hate that I am wondering if he
Is wondering about me right now
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