I'M Just a Man
You sat there crying with tears rolling down you face
Asked me why I didn’t show you any compassion
All I could say was that:
‘I’m just a man’
I should have wiped away your tears and held you tight
Told you I loved you and everything will be all right
Yet, I showed no emotion,
because ‘I’m just a man’
All the answers to your questions, I couldn’t find
I was impatient,
because ‘I’m just a man’
All those times you would scream and shout went unnoticed
I thought you would calm down after the silence
I never meant to hurt you,
but ‘I’m just a man’
I can still remember the day you said goodbye
I was so confident you would come running back
I wish I wasn’t so arrogant,
but ‘I’m just a man’
I saw you walking the other day with another guy
I can’t help but be jealous,
because ‘I’m just a man’
I saw you smile and you seemed so happy
Finally, you met someone who understood you
Who will show you compassion and hold you tight
You deserve a real man, not someone still a boy
But how could I understand,
when I don’t understand myself
I was an unloved child who lost his childhood
Nobody taught me how to become a man
Nobody told me the difference between right and wrong
Nobody taught me how to love and care for another
School didn’t teach me anything about life
Now here I am again all alone,
dealing with the ghost of the past
Even though you don’t think so,
I did love you deeply
Guess I didn’t say it enough,
because ‘I’m just a boy
I hope you have forgiven me
for the times I hurt you
Because
‘I’m not a man’,
‘I’m just a boy’
The Silent One
Simple Musing
Originally posted
9 September 2015
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