In the Paper

Written by: Neal Freeland

In the Paper

I’ve hidden my heart away in letters unspent
	Tumbling down, all around, everywhere but here
I’ve left my dreams locked away inside a pen staining a page
		Tumbling down, all around, everywhere but here
I’ve surrounded myself with smiling faces
			Tumbling down, all around, everywhere but here
Laughing eyes and biting tears born from work
				Tumbling down, all around, everywhere but here
Because I cannot bear to see my fate across these pages
					Tumbling down, all around, everywhere but here

I’ve left my soul trapped inside pages
	Screaming, it’s screaming, crying out loud
I’ve scrapped my heart inside a papermate’s blood
		Screaming, it’s screaming, crying out loud
I’ve screamed my mind’s cries all over the walls
			Screaming, it’s screaming, crying out loud
Of this page, this word, these words
				Are screaming, they’re screaming, crying out loud
Because I cannot see anything anymore
				I am screaming, I scream, crying out loud

I’ve laid my body down on these tracks
	It’s exhausted anyway, its tired, weary to the core
I’ve crushed my eyes between these lines
				Tumbling down, all around, everywhere but here
I’ve scraped my lips raw with paper cuts
		I cannot bear to speak, to whisper, release this whimper
All because I cannot bear the thought of you
					I am screaming, I scream, crying out loud
Being with another, kissing another, and I die here on this page
	I am screaming, 
              Tumbling down,                    
                   Crying out loud,  
                          E-V-E-R-Y-W-H-E-R-E  	but	 here 

Because you lied to me
You lied to me
When you said

I care a lot about you
You lied
Lied when you said

I think you know where that comes from

I died in the realization of that lie