In These Recent Days
It used to be fantastic.
I was happy.
The world was bright.
My future was bright.
Our future was bright.
At least that's how I saw it.
You loved me.
I loved you too.
I was ecstatic to see you every day.
When you weren't there, it hurt.
Your beauty humbled me. I felt unworthy.
Even when I was anxious and afraid,
Fearful that you didn't actually love me,
You pulled me through with your kindness and wonderful personality.
My anxiety is gone.
But it took my self-esteem with it.
The void where all that was
Has been replaced with depression and sadness.
You told me you didn't love me anymore.
You only wanted to be friends.
You say I didn't do anything wrong,
But that can't be the case.
I'm such a horrible person that
There must have been something.
Is there someone else?
I just don't know.
In these recent days,
These are the questions I've been asking.
You've always occupied my mind,
But I never wanted it to be like this.
I'm sure you didn't mean to hurt me.
You would never do anything to hurt me.
I know this is true.
But good intentions never saved anyone.
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