In This Time Before I Die
I will find my way through the ruins of lives since past
I will honour those who came before by making the same mistakes
I will have cause and purpose without perspective or reason
I will tell wicked lies and hide from the pain
I will take comfort in harmful things but not let it get the best of me
I will love recklessly and dispassionately causing more harm than good
I will intend to apologize but will lose the opportunity
I will capture haunting memories and replay them in a desperate need to feel
I will long deeply for her, in silence
I will misunderstand the value of being alone and regret it
I will question all that I know from time to time or perhaps all at once
I will spend all that I have chasing a dream only to wake up midway through
I will with good intention do the very least that I can
I will wonder what it was all really for anyway
And yet, I will continue to search
For something
Other than
Myself
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