Intoxicating
it's suffocating always waiting for the bad
and pretty damn humiliating when you've ruined every chance you've ever had.
Manipulating every choice i make day to day
complicating any relationship that comes my way.
emulating what i want in a man
keeping me wrapped up in you for as long as you can.
its weight off my back not having to make up for your slack
and freeing to know that i have time to grow.
living life for myself is a kind of exposure
that i haven't held onto because i couldn't find closure.
scared to go back because i always find hurt
but my heart has kind of been lost under the dirt.
dehydrated always searching for water
trying to make a life for me and my daughter
tugged apart by what's right and what my heart wants
never succeeding to realize when you put up your front.
taking in cold air waiting for life to come to me
knowing deep down whatever is meant to be, will be.
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