MY PRECIOUS BABY BOY THE CHILD I DREAMED OF- LONG BEFORE I HELD YOU. YOU'LL NEVER KNOW HOW DEEPLY I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU, FOR YOUR VERY HEART IS A PART OF MY OWN. INSIDE, I FEEL A PART OF ME IS DYING AS I STRUGGLE TO PULL YOU BACK TO ME- TO SAFETY. HOW DIFFICULT YOUR JOURNEY HAS BEEN AND HER AM I UNABLE TO UNDERSTAND THE PAIN AND CONFUSION THAT IS THE VERY ESSENCE OF YOU. AND SO-IN DESPERATION IN DEPRESSION IN CONFUSION YOUR STRUGGLE HAS BROUGHT YOU HERE TO WHAT I'M TERRIFIED MIGHT BE YOUR VERY DEATH YOUR VERY DESTRUCTION. I NEED TO SAVE YOU. I AM YOUR MOTHER. MY LOVE FOR YOU HAS ALWAYS REMAINED UNCHANGED. AND, IN THAT LOVE I HAVE SO DESPERATELY TRIED TO PROTECT YOU FROM THIS VERY MOMENT THE MOMENT I ALWAYS FEARED WOULD COME THE MOMENT WHEN I COULD NO LONGER SAVE YOU FROM YOURSELF...