Jules
To think for a second, to think I had something
I thought my life was so good
He told me things I cherished, secretly
But I never thought that he would...
He said I was the only one,
And you know it makes sense now
You were never mine, I never cared
You might have said it somehow
It would've saved me from this heartbreak
I never knew what it felt like till now
Loneliness, hurt, betrayal, tears...
Nothing but shaking and tears
Never wanting it to end, makes it end
Faster than we have years
Oh bittersweet heaven remove me now
So friendless and scared and alone
Hurt by two, who think they are the victim
I could tell in their voice, their tone
Why not? I think to myself
Let them think that I am alright
Because they don't care about it anyways
Why did I have to fall again last night?
Talking bout stars, about life, and the world
I could've let myself into his arms
I almost did, how I wanted to fall
His kindness, his honesty, his charms
Omg I can't believe that I was so dumb
That for a second I thought I was fine
I thought that I could come home one day
And not be surrounded by tears and rhyme
But this is worse than anything
I have ever felt before
Why did I think that I stood a chance
Against one with such beauty galore
Why do I care, it was I who broke away
I broke his heart I am told
If I did, is it rebound? Or is that what I am?
Nothing but hay against gold
Sobbing, hair pulling, locked door, locked heart
You shouldn't have opened it up, stupid girl
The wall was built for a reason, dear Jules
And now that truth will unfurl
Wicked girl, ugly girl, lost and alone
Give up, give it up, it's so clear
He doesn't want you, he doesn't care
But he whispers so softly in my ear
'I love you' he said, and now the tears flow
Again like they've never before
I'd love to stop crying but I feel so betrayed
It's obvious he cares for her more
What do I do, what can I say?
I could run but what would that do?
Jules, you're so stupid, I am so dumb
It's fake, love is fake, it isn't true
You fell once again into arms so strong
I fell once again, so strangely
Life hates me, time hates me, ugh I fell hard
I should've known that he wouldn't catch me
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