I put on a face because truthfully if I did anything else it would give it all away He can't know what I feel what I wish could be real because if the idea should arise I wouldn't ever be able to look him in the eye again. I don't want to ruin our friendship with my silly little shenanigans. The fact that I can't control my heart acceleration when he is around is my own damn problem. I've already shoved it off as a crush that has already gotten beyond my control but no one has to know I'll carry this little secret alone