Last Beacon of Hope
What is this?
A dull, yet aching feeling
Returning—so familiar
Why has it returned this night?
Is it here to stay?
Or will it simply go away,
And return full force upon my mind and soul?
This is the reality of it all,
This feeling is there because you allowed it there
It has returned as an all-too familiar foe,
Because the fact is no one cares
And yes, it is here to stay
It will never go away
It will just sleep and reawaken
Am I nothing to you?
What kind of fool am I to believe you care?
I mustn’t mean a thing
My lines you petulantly ignore
Trusting another will acknowledge for more
I want no one but you,
Is that selfish?
Is that sad?
You mean little to me,
I do not know why you think such a thing,
You mean little to nothing in my life
I have shown you countless times through my silence
And I know the others will fulfill your needs
You don’t need me
You are selfish
And you are pathetic
Can you be anymore blatant?
I’d crush you with my heart if it wasn’t already broken
Have you not tasted the flood of tears?
Will you answer me at least,
Or shall you leave me in my fears?
Do you truly wish to ignore?
The one that respects you to the core?
The one that admires your every being?
The one that sees what others are not seeing?
You cannot judge me, for you know nothing of me
You can’t crush me—only brush against me
I make it a point to close my mouth when they come
I’ve answered you enough within your conscience
And now I leave you for good
I acknowledge, I read—but nothing shall you feed
I wish now to continue my life
Without need of your dissonant light
You know me not and yet you say
You care about me—you’re blind
I’m stuck in this fantasy…
Why do I hide these feelings with despair?
Can I live with myself?
Give me your opinion—or give me a fact
Will this horror never go away?
Will it leave today?
What if I grasp the last beacon of hope?
This is the reality of it all,
This feeling is there because you allowed it there
It has returned as an all-too familiar foe,
Because the fact is no one cares
And yes, it is here to stay
It will never go away
It will just sleep and reawaken
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