Love Poem: Life Beloving Dualdark Night
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Written by: Gerald Dillenbeck

Life Beloving Dualdark Night

Some days and nights I am terrorized by death, cold silo ache-echoing fear, claustrophobic breathless dark barking inevitable factness and finality of my decomposing mortality, of history's posthumous demise, post-humorous as hell. What good is death if it cannot at least invite eternal engagement? Hopeful enrichment, even some recreational opportunities without concomitant health issues soaring through our DNA regenerate tissues. On better days and nights I am merely fearful that I am already dying apart by not choosing to live fully together. For my trauma days and nightmares, a message from Yin speaks Her Truth, feels Her fully exhaled trust, I have earned my sadness and depression, my badness gifts of Fear, more primordial than mere AnthroPrivileged Anger about vanities of mind power. I have earned my rights of anger about our body-loss predicament, this anxiety about inevitable body mortality and unenviable climatic mind loss Of opportunity to further stretch love of life cooperative muscles pleasing myself, just as I am co-passionate, reincarnating all past sadness and depression with all our competing terrors and climate-degenerative repressions of EarthBody organic health Settling, when we could choose more sublime panentheistic Times Gods and Goddesses of wealthy choice as Sun sacred light. Outlined in NotNot = LoseLose EcoSystemic Devolution reverse dialectic body/mind WinWin MusEcology Yin/Yang recentering Mythic Tao’s wu wei bodylife mindlove ++/(-,-) prime fractal Yang OVER Yin, CoOperatively re/deGenerating TransParent NotMind/NotBody NonDual-Dark AnthroMe/EarthWe climate health/wealth optimizing Continuous Life-Quality Improvement Trends predicting tellus polyvegetasty-rhythms, reiterating deep river-trees of deep bilateral-neural listening for future healing polyvagal function. Well, anyway, more about that whole Indigenous PreHistory of AnthroTime for EarthPlace evolution as bilaterally double-bound Me/We revolution co-gravitating equi-valent salient dipolarity Before or after climate death, depending on whether WeOrganicPeople are already looking listening whispering future bicameral time travels with more than Yang’s pen ' and right AnthroHand dominant language Also feelin' deep darkly yin our (0)-soul sad and suffering heart of perpetual empty loneliness and loss of hopefilled health-rooted regenerative purpose. But, back to chronically anxious oppression and our economic dis-ecological anthro-privileged dissonance about our self-smothering EarthBody repression of cooperative, triple-bottom WinWinWin healthy poli-economic/ecologic/egonormative live love lusty wealthy opportunities. When I’m sad and depressed, feeling repressed and or love suppressed, that’s because I am not crazy in a too-Yang dominant-deductive consciousness now co-arising emergent political-economic global networks of cooperative opportunities co-echoing-conscious health and therapy vocations bicameral DNA with dipolar RNA syntax confluent tipping our two eyes and ears To hunt and hear optimal mainframe WinWin Health and SafeWealth reproducing Equity CQI Outcomes, new notnot impossibilities of unhope, empowered by divesting, starving Not feeding and refueling decomposing LoseLose AnthroMind/EarthBody climate devolution MonoCultural AnthroSupremacist Political-Fat dissonantly, yet transparently, Yang bipolar mind v Yin holistic body OverDrafting Earth’s spirit/nature Balance, defined as love of health outcomes equitable to resonantly full DNA/RNA co-passion spectrum for authentically polycultured healthy life for wealthy love. It’s hard to hunt this bicameral balance when my well-earned sadness about self and other depression oppressive repression, stress of chronic climate dissonance triggers global autocratic rabid population DNA-disturbing ectoBody/endoMind symbiotic co-empathic empowering and economic enlightened feedback messages It’s time to turn increasing HumanPrivilegedNature rabidity around to find more cooperative and grace-filled WinWin healthy gifts and EarthWorship opportunities. It’s time to find each other and give full-voiced co-empathic hope. Hearing voices may be less crazy and more polypathically functional than not listening to our own voices of permacultural and ecological healthy-reasons for our seasons of sadness and gladness as LoseLose AND WinWin Losing to win neurosystemic “healthy” balance for Earth, and therefore RNA, and therefore DNA’s further, more cooperative and graceful kinda’ endosymbiotic positive-trending WinWin, Both-And dialectic-dipolar continuously reiterative positive Beloved Conversations, choosing both Internal with External Ego/EcoCentric Voices. Speaking of Earth-centric, Richard Dawkins speaks in my dominant Left mindbody voice investing systemic, bionic, robotic analogies for our shared exegetical consciousness of evolutionary survival as anthro-logically required, and, if not continuing evolution, then how would a robot trend climatic devolution? And, should that become anything to do with LoseLose hierarchical-monocultural, mutual-competitive, so that each EgoPlayer must choose either Win or Lose and is prohibited by Ego’s bicamerally self-blinding restraint, repression, sadness, suffering LeftBrain dominant environmental nurture, temporarily blind to double-binding regenerative resonant resolutions ubiquitously copresent in fractal and double-octave functions and frequencies of light as energy and sound and feeling and taste and touch… to always prefer choosing MeWin-to-WeWin, regenerating-revolving DNA/RNA double-bound (0)-soul centric Political mind with economic body co-binary Left-Right bicameral balancing love wealth as organic health life. When my mindbody will let me choose more self-with-other, both-and, Win-Win wu wei life, that is choosing love So it helps to always choose it, one CoPresent AnthroMoment within timelessly unfolding EarthEmbodied grace of Time.