Living With Regrets
3am on the clock
And still I can't get to sleep
As I laid there crying
I realized we were only 2 days away
And we wldve hit 6 months
In so little time
We done so much
And been thru even more
We've had our good days
And we've had our bad
I've made mistakes
Both big and small
Not once or twice
But several times
And now even the good times
And the love we shared
Cant mend the bridges I've burnt
As I sit here alone
Getting down to my last cigarette
Listening to another sad song
Wondering if it's possible
For a person to run out of tears
You're somewhere far away
And sound asleep
They say when a person can't sleep
Its b/c they're awake in someone else's dreams
I wish that were true
You've always been so patient
You've always been so kind
But even someone as forgiving as u
Can only take so much
And for u this was the last time
But for me it opened my eyes
I wish I could say 'better late than never'
But this time that don't apply
And I don't get another try
No matter how much I beg and plead
Or say 'this is the last time'
I know in my heart its true
And if it means spending the rest of my life with u
I know what I could do with one last try
But I guess we'll never know
Cuz there's no changing your mind
I'm sorry just won't cut it
No not this time
And u don't believe the 'I'll never do it again'
So I guess
I was just a little too late
And now I'm sitting here reminiscing
Wishing I would've woke up sooner
But I didn't
And I can't change that now
So all I can really say
Is please know
That when I told u I loved u
I meant it with all my heart
And though it may be over for u
It's not even close for me
I still wake up and reach out
To bed as empty as the heart inside my chest
I try to hide the tears
I try to hide the way my heart hurts
And I know I may have said sum hateful things
But that's no way to be
Considering how good u were to me
I'm trying to take it easy
But the memories tear me wide open
And there's no one for me to blame but myself
So from here on out
I want u to know
That I wish u the best
A part of me will forever love u
And if u ever change your mind
I'll never be very far
You are absolutely amazing
And u deserve nothing but the best
I'm just sorry that wasn't me and u
Well maybe for u it wasn't
But if I had the chance
I would certainly do it all over again
I just wouldn't make the same mistake twice
And lose 1 of the 2 best things to ever happen to me
I love u
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