Lonely Child
Lonely child
Dwelling under this roof that use to be bullet proof
I sit out here lost home alone
With visions of you that I carry when you were still at home
I await daily to feel your love over the discourse we have on the phone
This house remains vacant
And the fresh smelled aroma from you washing our laundry still lingers throughout the vents
Coming up from the basement
And the walls still echoe your consoling voice
After the authorities came in and abducted you surviving standing alone has been my only choice
Im a lonely child
Your 1 out of 5 children with adopted emotions of an only child
And when they sentenced you to fifthteen years in prison my entire world turned wild
Dedicated to my 4th child my love
Im still your big bright eyed child only subtract the smile
Because when these floors get to creaking your footsteps it questions me was your crime really worth the while
I envision you in the kitchen, in my bedroom planting kisses in my sleep
Awakening me to late walmart runs
Say’n son come grab a videogame its gonna be fun
You ten years in now we walking down them miles
You stated Son hindsight is always better than foresight
And if I was thinking rational and sober it wouldnt had resulted to this and Ill redo that night
I should have been grateful and appreciated all that I had
And if I retained the knowledge I hold today
You wouldnt be displaying those perplexed frowns living sad
Maybe then Ill still have the presence humor of my dad
Lonely child, Its almost over now
I just pray the vacant structure is still standing
And the resentment of destruction hasnt torn it completely down
Have faith in God
He promised to restore back what we lost 10 fold
I understand your cold
And for me to keep telling you Im coming home each year is getting old
But trust God and find strength
Ill be back home and things will come back around
We will renovate that home
And it will be the best in town
You wont be left alone
And we will no longer have to express our love over this phone
The flood of your tears will reduce from being spilled
And all of your empty vacancies will then be filled
Then you wont be lonely
Sitting listening to the noises of the broken home
I left behind that crys and moans
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