Lost and Found
Im lost in this darkness this
world of destruction my brother
is not my brother and our
mother loves us not running
with many only a few with
flashlights who will make it to
the light as the night grows
stronger I feel as if I'm weaker
laughing with those who laugh
at me and not with me we can
not be friends because no one
knows what that is anymore I
can not love because I haven't
felt it before I can not give you
truth because no one showed
me how, I can not care for you
because Im careless for self i
am running alone in this
darkness with many running too
some have flashlights but while
running i open my eyes realizing
it was never dark eyes wide
shut is what my grandmother
says find love in yourself child
let pain and anger go i feel like
I've been alone for a long time
all the while god was with me
the whole time, i gave my mind
to the streets my body to those
not deserving my heart to those
who didn't need it, they came
and gone ripping me into pieces
i found comfort in sin with all
the sinners but he saved me
because I'm worth it to him
GOD came into my room while i
laid in the dark drugged up and
drunk and he kissed me and
said my child NO PAIN, I LOVE
YOU EVEN THO YOU DONT LOVE
YOU I HAVENT GIVEN YOU
ANYTHING I DIDNT FEEL YOU
COULD HANDLE, my mother
killed herself, my husband was
murdered in front of me what
do i have to live for why not run
threw darkness no one cares
how i feel inside they take i
give, YOU HAVE KNOWLEDGE
USE IT, but it was a dream or
was it i have opened my eyes
wide open i feel i am loved i am
worth it i am blessed!!!!!!
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