Love and Leave
i BLED for you-
from my anorexic soul,
it craved nothing and everything
so that you could stay safe and warm
you BLED for you-
the only way you knew how-
sighing sated sentiments for solitude,
never knowing how flawed your veins were
i CRIED for you-
the deepest depth can’t reach;
all the tragedy you thought i carried
was baggage you knew not how to hold
you CRIED for you-
so that you could become free-
matters of your heart mean not love,
but misconstrued broken glass from me
you bled
I CRIED
you cried
I BLED
now i weep in silence-
i have an evanescent thought;
fleeting paramount of a paradox,
for you were the one i always longed for
epiphanies of symphonies of us during youth-
yearning for the truth to ease what was wounded
i NEEDED you-
the farewell letter left told a tale of love and loss;
what we never could be
you NEEDED you-
so that you could become what you never were,
and what you never will be
so i walk amongst all the might have beens and
see what was always right in front of my eyes-
i settled for you when i was radiating hope,
not knowing my dreams would escape;
i fear not the way you loved but the
way you left without the worry
of my heart breaking
i ask you again,
why did you
LOVE
and
LEAVE
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1.20.20
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