Love at first sight
I asked her
do you believe that as soon as any man walks into a room and he’s eyes fall so completely upon someone like you he can fall in love?
at first
she didn’t answer
she just looked at me
probably surprised by my frankness
my impudence
my candour
but then she asked me
are you inquiring about love at first sight
a feeling that may not or might exist somewhere
beneath all the clutter filling a juvenile mind
or are you asking me about an aching
an itch that needs to be scratched
or a desire
a want
a thirst for a liaison with no strings attached?
defiantly I replied
love at first sight which I know operates surreptitiously in the wasteland between an obligation and a need to unite heart and head from amongst the confusion of restraint, pursuit and absolute dread but it’s source
undoubtedly
is the heart which let’s face it
over the course of a lifetime
performs some pretty cool
yet for no apparent reason in one instant can explode a bomb designed to inflict
maximum damage to the limbs and the tummy and intellectual mechanics
of the victim
which in this case is me
and I need to tell you
you are
that incendiary device
perfect
incomparable
completely beautiful and designed to entice
to convince
to ignite intentions inside
to reawaken desires
thought stolen by time
and that explosion
that eruption of feeling in a nanosecond
can reverse all the years given over to personal internal corrosion
all the doubt
and worries
all the spiteful self inflicted inner erosion
and implement love
and that’s what happened to me
it’s what you achieved when you offered rationality
a good reason to leave
because in my mind
when I walked into this place and I saw you
you filled the room
you emptied it
you spoke
you screamed
you sent up distress flares
yet probably did none of this
because in a moment I was absorbed and
transfixed
obsequious even
psychologically pissed and
I became someone or something I wasn’t before
incomplete
like a jigsaw scattered all over the floor
and I wanted you to reassemble me
to understand
to reciprocate
to feel empathy
for our likes and dislikes to chemically bond
to create some kind of loved up remedy and I now know
love at first sight really exists when it’s true
when it’s untethered
when it’s substantial and it’s living and I never recognised it until I saw you
to me you are everything
again she never replied
not at first
her eyes
decoding
manufacturing
her thoughts incubating inside
she was searching I assume
for what she needed to say
to placate me maybe
to chastise me or even
to bat my feelings away?
but then she simply smiled at me
almost knowingly
as if to her this was an everyday occurrence
like Deja vu
like Groundhog Day
and said something that completely surprised me
thank you she said
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